Friday, April 22, 2011

All is One

Her eyes become the room and glow

and we drink the golden dust

of our Shepherd’s Footsteps

sate our thirst with the pull

of her warm oceanic palms

we cling to her, our northern star.


Single file, we follow.

Pilgrims,

we vie for a last means of

hiding-protection, Yet We walk


deep into the walnut woods, drunk

off the breath that waters the earth, We seek

the quiet counsel of the cave of our souls, the mother of our woods

who speaks her wisdom in constant gurgling streams.


Woods, you’ve felt high-ceilinged

in my confusion, large with my guilt, joyous

with my joy, inverted

in my despair


We lost her in your midst, and pawed

at your silent trees,

dangling hearts pleading for their northern guide

and in congruent form, you Loved

by raining chanting puddles at our feet

In which I glimpsed us: Star-lights bowing!


Oh, Woods, you wetted my ear with dew kisses

and breathed on me with

warm whispers

of Velvet nights that will unfurl

Star-Lights in streams of endless days


How long ago were our love chords bound,

How long ago did our star-eyes meet, collide, make a pact of eternal love?


And the stars in our souls are veined together as ever,

My heart is as warm as ever

We are Glowing orange coals-no different than the other

- I want to hold in my mouth.


Single file we all walk to the gurgling stream

Splash our faces and arms with its light, strangely natural water

sometimes we even take the plunge

year after year we walk, single file we descend

and the stream keeps on flowing

Cave in the woods of my heart

Listen, pilgrim


Did you see that leaf falling?

Did you hear that engine revving up?

Do you hear the clock?

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Ta Ta For Now

Hello lovelies,

I am really sad I couldn't make it to class last night because of the holiday. But I am super hopeful about all of us keeping in touch. I will be here over the summer (pretty much the whole time), and think we should set up a meditation group.

Who else will be here? I am very available and flexible, basically available all weekdays after 4 pm and weekends. We can also do fun stuff together like Tai Chi and going to services at Siddha or the Zen Buddhist Temple. I'd love to keep up the tradition :)

Thoughts? Also, out of curiosity, who else will be taking Psych 418 in the fall? I can't wait!

Roxy

A Confused, Lucid Dream

So I guess it was inevitable that after all that dream-talk yesterday, I had my first lucid dream in a really long time. I recognize that it is a very small step, but exciting nonetheless!

Essentially, in my dream I received a voicemail from a business school classmate who was in my advertising competition group (although is not in reality), complaining that I hadn't been to a meeting in 5 weeks and that I was responsible for explaining my ideas to her and telling her what to say when she does her presentation. At the time of the call, I think I had been drinking in my dream and had gotten back from a party with my boyfriend. I was talking to him about the voicemail and started to question reality, saying, "I don't have to go to this meeting, this isn't even reality. This is just a dream. I don't have to go." After saying that, I found myself laying in bed (in the dream), wondering if I was really in a dream within a dream, and whether or not THAT moment was reality. I got really confused, and then I woke up....with a neck cramp (in real life).

Nothing special really happened, but I thought it was really cool that after talking about dreams I started to experience a fragment of lucid dreaming for a moment last night. I'm wondering if the more I bring lucid dreaming into my consciousness during the day, if I will continue to question it while dreaming. Maybe next time I can learn to break dance in my sleep.

Happy Finals Season!

Karen

Friday, April 15, 2011

Yoga Event Sunday

Thank you all so much for posting some wonderful entries of late. What a pleasure to come back to this spot after a brief absence and be greeted with so many ideas!

I wanted to mention that this Sunday (4/17) my student group is hosting another free yoga event. This one is at the Center for Yoga's other Ann Arbor location at 2450 W. Stadium Blvd. This Hot Vinyasa class will be taught by one of my favorite instructor, Kelli Harrington. Class starts at 12:45pm, but get there early if you want a spot ;)

Hope to see some of you there. If not, have a wonderful weekend all the same.

Eve

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Ann Arbor Free Skool

Find out more about it here. The Monday Tai Chi class that I referred to below is put on by them.

http://annarborfreeskool.blogspot.com/p/classesevents.html

Check it out now (the funk soul brother).

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Tai Chi

Today I practiced Tai Chi with a friend who is very knowledgeable and experienced and also just an awesome person. He said that one of the main points of the practice was to remind us that we are creatures between heaven and earth. In introducing the different positions, he encouraged me keep the top of my body light, the legs firmly grounded in the earth, and always with a focus on the breath as emanating from the abdomen. This was something new to me - I'd never thought about the fact that it's our diaphragms opening and closing that starts our breath. Nick also explained that it's our center of balance, as well as the place within us where life originated (or at least that the fuel which would fuel life first entered into our body..).

The session was by no means easy - my legs were shaking towards the end. But with practice this will become better. It's nice because it's a slow, graceful movement that you're doing, and it's easy (and important) to line up your breath with your actions. I want to reflect more on this experience and learn more about the practice, but I also want to just continue doing it! So tomorrow night at 8:30 there's a Tai Chi session that takes place at the ICC Education Center, which is located between and behind the Luther Co-op(s) near "The Rock" @ 1510 and 1520 Hill street. As far as I know, it's free and open to all, and I plan on attending. I'd encourage you all to think about coming as well!

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Happiness.

Today's conversation was great. There are only two more classes left, but I hope even once this class is over we can all meet up to talk, maybe even some group meditation? In any case, feel free to friend me on Facebook so we can all stay in touch! I won't think you're creepy for finding me too.

On the topic of happiness: one of my favorite poems I've posted below for you all to read. I'm a sucker for good poetry, and this one has really stuck with me. Enjoy.

The Plum Trees
Such richness flowing
through the branches of summer and into

the body, carried inward on the five
rivers! Disorder and astonishment

rattle your thoughts and your heart
cries for rest but don't

succumb, there's nothing
so sensible as sensual inundation. Joy

is a taste before
it's anything else, and the body

can lounge for hours devouring
the important moments. Listen,

the only way
to temp happiness into your mind is by taking it

into the body first, like small
wild plums

-Mary Oliver



Peace,
Ryan John

Synesthesia & The Arts

Also, here's a link to an article about synesthesia and art -

http://www.mitpressjournals.org/doi/abs/10.1162/002409499552957

Choice Overload

Hey all, here's the article that I mentioned today in class - a.k.a. the jam example:

http://www.columbia.edu/~ss957/whenchoice.html

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Secret spots

Does anybody have any good places they like to go to meditate that around the campus area? In the Michigan League there's a "Reflection Room" on the third floor that I'll go into sometimes. I like it because I go in and close the door and it becomes my own private space. Anybody else have any good spots to share? Maybe if we spot each other meditating we can spontaneously stop and tune in together! Sometimes it really helps to do something that requires focus with other people who are focusing in the same kind of way.

Can't wait until it gets warm out and so many more nice spaces to meditate will reveal themselves!

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

The Veil

Hey guys. Just thought I'd post this in its original form; hope you enjoy the experience of this idea as much as I am.

The Veil

Silence is pregnant with countless truths, yet unknown. I feel the Great Unmanifest, a humming field of light, churning, swelling, breathing toward me. She is the Tao, the Mother the Everything, and she cloaks herself from our minds' hungry eyes. All we think we see is but this veil that separates us from her skin, which we long to feel soft and naked under our fingers.

There is a veil, yet I know her presence still; I feel her lovely round shape, and her warm breath surrounding me. I hear her deep calm, resonating my heart. I feel her reaching inside me, insisting that I too, am the Unknown. I feel myself disappearing inside her, and at least for a moment, the veil is gone.

Monday, March 21, 2011

mind-body healing

http://www.cnn.com/2011/HEALTH/03/03/ep.seidler.cancer.mind.body/index.html

Interesting story from CNN! Check it out.

Also, I'm currently writing a paper on dreams for another psychology class. I will definitely post it on here when it's finished because it has much to do with conscious experiences.

See you all tomorrow.

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Sunday, February 20, 2011

The universe is alive.


I'm still in the process of writing a post on my experiences with spirituality. In the meantime, I thought it very appropriate to share my new epiphany with all of you.

Yesterday I was talking with my house mates about what 'awareness' is--is a chair aware that it's a chair?, does a spoon carrying information?, do you need a brain to observe?, etc.

I said something near the end of this conversation that surprised me: "The universe is alive."

I had never put it into such exact words before, but I realized this is how I've always felt. It's the only way I can describe God. It's the only thing that allows me to carefully reject nihilism, or the apathy and pessimism I often feel. The universe is alive.

I was thinking about it obsessively at 2am--I referred to the Google search engine to read other people's thoughts and came across the photograph above.

It would take 300 million light years to travel from one end of this photograph/simulation to the other. The man who posted this picture in his blog mentioned it looked like tissue--a network of cells.

It looks like the nervous system, doesn't it?



This may be a stretch, but it got me thinking: the universe is constantly expanding, and as it does dark energy and dark matter fills the void.

Meditation is known to increase the grey matter in our brain...how is the universe any different in this sense?



It makes me feel very small, but it also makes everything feel so meaningful too.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

satisfaction

My meditation experience this morning left me so happy. I'd like to share with you what I ecstatically wrote in my journal right after it:

I NEED NOTHING MORE THAN WHAT IS CONTAINED IN THIS MOMENT TO BE SATISFIED. I HAVE MANY BEAUTIFUL THINGS IN MY LIFE BUT I NEED NOT COUNT THEM, THIS JOY COMES NOT FROM THEM. I FEEL A PROFOUND AND COMPLETE SATISFACTION WHICH HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THE EXTERNAL - SATISFACTION IS A CHOICE IN ITSELF, A PURELY MENTAL PLACE.

EVERYTHING HAS TURNED INSIDE-OUT, WITH EMPTINESS NOW FEELING LIKE ABUNDANCE, AND ALL THOSE THINGS I ONCE DESIRED SEEMING HOLLOW AND INSUBSTANTIAL. I WAS ALMOST AFRAID TO SAY IT: I NEED... NOTHING... MORE... THAN THIS... NOTHING MORE THAN THIS! THEN I SAID IT OVER AND OVER, JOYOUSLY, RECKLESSLY, LIKE A ROMPING CHILD - I NEED NOTHING MORE! - ALL THE WHILE STOMPING PLAYFULLY ON THOSE OLD DESIRES LIKE THEY WERE CRAWLING BUGS ON THE SIDEWALK.

I don't know why I wrote it in all caps, that's how I did in my journal.

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Hey all,

I just want to say thank you for creating such a beautiful, one-ness energy during chanting today. I am really happy that we're all discovering the experience of chanting together, and giving our all. In class I said how comfortable I felt with your voices, but I kind of want to expand on that feeling...

I was getting a lot of imagery. One person mentioned forests, and I totally felt that too. But I also felt this awesome "lifting" feeling whenever we became in unison, as if our voices were pulling us high into this other realm, somewhere great. I kept picturing our voices as these dazzling, yellow zig-zag's beaming from our throats, and creating a giant ball of energy.

I think sitting in a circle made a huge difference. While I had a peaceful, meditative experience at the Siddha center with chanting, I was not influenced as much by everyone else's voices. Something about encircling ourselves, making that everlasting shape, really affected me. I also remember wanting to hold hands, if just to make the experience even more "kumbaya" or powerful.

Anyway, during the chant I told myself that if I get upset, to think about the One voice we can create, and to rest in it. I hope this can be useful to you too! I would also love to hear any further thoughts on chanting :D

Law IV

This is from a sheet handed to me in an esoteric healing class from two years ago. It is "The Fourth Law of Esoteric Healing":

Disease, both physical and psychological, has its roots in the good, the beautiful and the true. It is but a distorted reflection of divine possibilities. The thwarted soul, seeking full expression of some divine characteristic or inner spiritual reality, produces - within the substance of its sheaths - a point of friction. Upon this point the eyes of the personality are focused, and this leads to disease. The art of the healer is concerned with the lifting of the downward focused eyes unto the soul, the true Healer within the form. The spiritual or third eye then directs the healing force, and all is well.

I think it's from Alice Bailey's books on Esoteric Healing.

"has its roots in the good, the beautiful and the true" - I like this view of disease :)

Thoughts on student life

Lately, I’ve been struggling with my personal journey of spiritual growth. It has largely been my belief (at least lately) that one should be able to carry out every act in life in a mindful, meaningful, and loving, manner. In terms of my academics, last semester, this was more effortless. I was passionate about what I was focusing on in each course and I found the learning environments invigorating. This semester, however, I have not had the same luck. It has been difficult for me to make a good portion of my coursework personally meaningful, I’ve struggled with disempowering classroom environments, and some of my grades have been reflecting my consequential attitudes, which only works to exacerbate the problem.

I’ve felt myself bucking against some of my academics, asking myself that if the work is not meaningful or empowering, why should I be spending my energy on it, when I could be doing things that are so much more spiritually rewarding? Why do so many students have the notion drilled into their minds that these four (or more) years of their lives are supposed to be devoted to studying (whether it is meaningful or not) – as if during these four years they should be willing, in essence, to put their lives on hold while they complete this requirement of obtaining a college degree? I know that the implications in these questions are fairly reductive, but I feel that they should be asked nonetheless and know that many would do well to reflect on them. I find myself often asking questions like these after I realize that I’ve gone through a period of time on “autopilot” (if you know what I mean).

What do you think? What does this period of your life mean to you and how do you determine what to invest energy/time in (or how much); or have you simply found that you can go about your life, and complete all of your obligations in a mindful, loving way?

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Remind Yourself

Since I have been very sick the past couple of days I have looked for something to remind myself that the illness doesn't have to have a complete hold on me. I have this passage from Dr. Wayne Dyer indefinitely posted above my desk in my apartment, so I thought I might share.

Remind yourself that you don't have to do anything. You don't have to be better than anyone else. You don't have to win. You don't have to be number one or number twenty-seven or any other number.

Give yourself permission to just be. Stop interfering with your unique natural being. Lighten the burden you carry to be productive, wealthy, and successful in the eyes of others and replace it with an inner assertion that allows you to access the Tao.

Affirm: I am centered in the Tao. I trust that I am able to straighten myself out, and so is the world. I retreat into silence knowing all is well.

So I will try to allow myself to just be. Despite the headache and side-effects of antibiotics that make me want to classify a new category of illness. All will be well again, soon enough.

Karen

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Precognition Group Research Ideas

Hey Guys,


Last semester with Richard Mann I did some research on anomalous retroactive influences on cognition and affect. During my studies, I came up with a few ideas a long the way for possible future research ideas. I’ve also included some things to keep in mind throughout the process. Below I’ve summarized some of my ideas.


Christen


Goal:

  • Explore the possibility that consciousness may not only be limited to perceptible information in the sensory present and memory of the past, but also to that in the future.
  • Examine and understand human evolution, the human mind, human perception and behavior, and the nature of our physical reality to a greater degree


What is psi?

  • A sensible, normal, extremely efficient, and continuous aspect of the psychological functioning of all organisms
  • Intrinsically unconscious, preconscious, devoid of any available sensory information, broadly active and important, and motivated by personal intentions and needs
  • Operate outside of the physical body.


Possible Study Ideas:


  1. Is there a statistically significant correlation between stimulus seeking and psi performance?
  2. Are those who are ranked as high stimulus seekers more likely to attain a high effect size than those who are not?
  3. Design an experiment that tested directly for the retroactive induction of boredom on non-arousing neural stimuli.
  4. Do extraverts perform better on psi tasks than introverts? How does this relate to the course of evolution?
  5. Test an individual’s ability to recall a set of words to determine the role that rehersal plays in the facility of this process
  6. By practicing free recall tests of the sets of words shown to them, are participants able to recall more of the to-be-practiced words than the unpracticed words?
  7. Explore the influence of unconscious physiological responses to future events through examining psi performance in one person in the same location, but at different times.
  8. Is psi space-time equivalent? Does our consciousness have transtemporal aspects?
  9. Do “calm” pictures produce little to no response, while a “extreme” picture would result in a rise in skin conductance, a drop in heart rate, and a drop in finger blood volume? Additionally, does the emotional arousal caused by seeing an extreme picture in the future cause an unconscious physiological “pre-action” in the present? Particularly, do the emotional targets show an orienting “pre-ponse” prior to the exposure of the target photos?


Possible Methods:


  1. Use the IAPS: a set of 820 digitized photographs that had been rated on 9-point scales for valence and arousal by both male and female raters
  2. Stimulus seeking scale: Participants respond to two different pictures on a scale, consisting of the following statements: “I am easily bored” and “I often enjoy seeking movies I’ve seen before” (reverse scored). All responses were then documented on 5-point scales that spanned from “very untrue” to “very true,” and averaged in a single score extending from 1 to 5.
  3. Use strongly negative or erotic pictures
  4. Use Zuckerman’s Sensation Seeking Scale (which contains a subscale of Boredom Susceptibility that is significantly correlated with overall extraversion) to determine a measure for erotic stimulus seeking
  5. Record the heart rate, blood volume, and electrodermal activity of each participant before, during, and after presentation of each target photo to see whether the body unconsciously responds differentially to two types of future targets
  6. Timing of when target photo is selected: directly prior to being displayed to participants or after.
  7. Participants take a personality test prior to the experiment: The sensation seeking facet on the Revised NEO Personality Inventory
  8. Use random number generators to limit the influence of the experimenter on the results (i.e. the internal PRNG, Marsaglia’s PRNG, and/or the Araneus Alea I RNG)
  9. Administering a measure of creativity prior to the experiment
  10. Study psi performance in various situations in which persons are engaging in “normal” activities and not striving to demonstrate a paranormal effect
  11. Study psi functioning using implicit or behavioral methods (i.e projective techniques) as opposed to self-report measures (i.e. questionnaires) because the variables affecting it act on unconscious levels
  12. Minimizing the role of the experimenter as much as possible, by reducing their interaction to that of greeter and debriefer, and leaving the instructions concerning the experiment and all other interactions with the participant up to the computer program


Things to keep in mind:

  1. Statistical procedures that are as simple, transparent, and recognizable as possible (i.e. one sample t-tests
  2. Individual difference variables that predict psi performance. Studies on psi have indicated that those who are open to experience, believe in the existence of psi, feel that they have experienced psi in their everyday life, and practice inward, mental discipline in which they develop insight into their own dream life (i.e. meditation, yoga, self-hypnosis, biofeedback, etc.) are more likely to demonstrate a psi performance effect than those who do not. Other beneficially characteristics include those with a stronger tendency toward dissociation and absorption; those who are more socially engaged, adventurous, and less anxious; those with motivations to succeed that are consistent at different levels of awareness and relatively invariant over time; those who have a general tendency to be successful across situations, those who are creative and have a capacity to delay cognitive closure; and those who are highly motivated and successful at performance effectively.
  3. What is the emotional state of the individual at the time they encounter the material of the ESP task? Findings by Schmeidler and McConnell (1958) suggest that “the subject’s attitude is most important in determining the quality of his or her (extrasensory) perception.”
  4. What are the environmental conditions that encourage and facilitate the performance of psi? Environments in which precognition, retroactive influence, and remote viewing are most likely are to occur include: 1) those in which participants engage in practices using anomalous cognition at least twice a week; 2) those that are peaceful; 3) those that are quiet (nothing on the walls, few pieces of furniture, bland); 4) those that promote the participant to be in a calm/meditative state; 5) those in which the participant has no prior knowledge of the target; and 6) those in which the “correct” target is determined by some external random event that it is not known to judges when they are making their evaluations (Brown, 2006, p. 29-31).
  5. Other experimental criteria to keep in mind: 1) the participants should not know anything about the target when they conduct the session; 2) the monitor of the experimental session (if a monitor is used) should not know anything about the target; 3) the analyst of the session should not participate in other aspects of the experiment; 4) the tasker should not participate in the collection of information or any other aspect of the experiment; 5) a monitor (if a monitor is used) should not work with multiple participants within the same context of the same experiment; and 6) the participant must engage in the process alone and in an isolated environment.
  6. Various confounding variables that could influence the findings of experiments: 1) the mere exposure effect; 2) liking for stimuli; 3) avoiding habituation; 4) using control sessions.
  7. Factors that have been found to enhance the expression of the effect in both parapsychological and “perception without awareness” experiments: drawing responses rather than verbalizing them, sensory attenuation, hypnosis, free association, dream sleeping, relaxed reverie, and a positive, encouraging environment

Monday, February 7, 2011

Music and Us

Hey Guys,

In a few of the recent posts, I have been reading how people have had tremendous and extraordinary experiences with music. Specifically Israel Kamakawiwo'ole - Somewhere Over the Rainbow/What a Wonderful World
2) Billy Joel - Piano Man
3) Elton John - Tiny Dancer
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Saturday, February 5, 2011

Radiohead - Nude

Is it just me, or is this song about meditation? It's beautiful. Here are the lyrics and the URL to the song:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4zhUdRr6-Fs

Don't get any big ideas
They're not gonna happen

You paint yourself white
And fill up with noise
But there'll be something missing

Now that you've found it, it's gone
Now that you feel it, you don't
You've gone off the rails

So don't get any big ideas
They're not gonna happen

You'll go to hell for what your dirty mind is thinking

transport of matter


I mentioned this study in class on Tuesday, and remembered I had done a write-up of it some time last year.  Here is what I have for you.  If you're interested in checking out current and past issues of the Journal of Scientific Exploration, the quarterly publication source for this and other fascinating research, I'd recommend you head over to the Serial/Microform area of the Undergraduate Library.  You can definitely find the journal online via Mirlyn, but it's nice to actually hold it in your hands, and although I don't believe you can take most issues out of the library, there are scanners and copy machines available for your convenience.

Unexpected Behavior of Matter in Conjunction with Human Consciousness (2010) – Dong Shen

This article discusses the experiment in which a small piece of paper was transported out of a plastic vial by the means of human consciousness. The phenomenon of solid matter penetrating solid matter is attributed to a second consciousness state (SCS) that differs from the first, normal consciousness state of everyday thinking. Chinese research has suggested the involvement of a third-eye screen, which is essentially an image of an object created on a virtual “screen” in the middle of the forehead when a practitioner spends about an hour thinking deeply about the object. Psychokinetic (PK) transportation of the paper from the vial requires an image of the paper to be held stably on the screen by the SCS so that the first consciousness state can visualize moving the paper out of the vial; findings suggest that the paper image on the screen is able to receive information from the practitioner.

The methods used in this experiment were derived from Chinese research that began in the 1970s. These early studies were fueled by findings regarding Exceptional Function of the Human Body (EFHB), first seen in a boy who could “read” Chinese characters written on a piece of paper placed next to his ear. Shouliang Chen at Beijing University sought to determine whether or not EFHB was a physiological function of the body, and his studies found numerous other children and adults who were considered to have EHFB. The resulting source of practitioners served to advance research on this topic in a number of other programs.

For this particular experiment, practitioners were recruited from the Fudan University workforce. Individuals were selected to voluntarily undergo ESP and PK training without compensation and were generally 16-22 years old with little education. Results showed that success was often predicted by individuals’ level of mental flexibility and lack of preconception; approximately 60% of participants were successfully trained in ESP, with lower rates for PK success.

In this study, the canister was a standard-sized, opaque black plastic, 35-mm film cartridge container with its cap. A slip of paper 65mm by 90mm had a number written on it before being placed inside the canister. Although the practitioner, a 17-year old male, had no ability to achieve SCS initially, after six months of psychokinetic training, the experiment began. After the practitioner spent two days preparing, the experimenter wrote the number 830 on the paper, folded it four times, then passed it to a second experimenter who placed it inside the canister. The practitioner was seated one meter away from the table and told the paper was inside but not what was written on it.

Approximately forty minutes passed in silence as the practitioner stared intently at the canister. Moments later, the practitioner stated not only that the paper had moved to the floor near the wall, but also that it had the number 830 written on it in blue ink. None of the experimenters described seeing the paper leaving the container or flying across the room, but upon further inspection, there was in fact the very same paper on the ground near the wall, still folded.

The researcher provided the manner in which the practitioner described his experiment as follows, “during the experiment he concentrated on the black catridge container and got it deep in his consciousness while entering into the SCS. Then an image of the container appeared on the third-eye screen located in front of his forehead. He saw the image of the paper in the same way. At the very beginning, the paper image was not stable and not clear. After he focused on the image for a while, it became stable and clear on the screen. The number on the paper could then be easily read, that is, 830 written in blue, even though the paper was folded inside the capped container. When the image of the paper was clear on the screen, he started to use his mind to move the paper out of the container. At a certain point, he “saw” in his mind that the container was empty and saw in the room that the paper was on the floor near the wall.”

This research found that second consciousness state images on the third-eye screen have a number of remarkable qualities. When the practitioner is in the SCS, he can see the folded paper on his third-eye screen, and even has the capability to mentally examine it to determine its parts and characteristics, which was the number 830 in blue ink. Studies have also shown that an individual can focus on a given page of a closed book and read it while the book remains closed. This is possible because the image of the object on the third-eye screen is actively connected with the actual object; merely reading the third-eye screen is simply ESP. Psychokinesis results from the SCS focusing on the image and working with the normal, first consciousness state, which can then instruct the object to move.

According to the author, there are three requirements for psychokinetic activities. The first is that the image of the object actually appears on the third-eye screen. Second, the image on the screen must be stable to ensure it is intimately connected with the real object such as that between an object and its reflection in a mirror. This is achieved by maintaining concentration on the object. Finally, the image receives its “instruction” from the normal, first state of consciousness. When the position of the image on the screen changes, the real object will follow the position change simultaneously, similar to a tunneling process associated with a quantum mechanical wave function. These traits can be trained, with children 8-12 years old and young adults 15-22 years old with limited education showing best results.

Friday, February 4, 2011

Brene Brown's Ted Talk

I don't know about you guys, but I love Ted Talks. The link below is to one a friend sent me, and it literally made my day. I think part of the draw was that this woman (Brene Brown) is a self-described researcher/storyteller. One the one hand, this pleases the side of me that has been rigorously trained to reject anything that does not have firm grounding in research... and on the other, it satisfies the side of me that just wants to hear an authentic story. Enjoy!

http://www.ted.com/talks/brene_brown_on_vulnerability.html

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Addiction

My class was cancelled this morning so I decided to meditate in the diag. I took off my coat and set it on the little cement wall, took off my boots and sat in lotus, soaking up the sunlight and trying not to think about how cold my hands and neck were. Eventually I was able to enter the deep vastness and pretty much ignore the cold gusts. Suddenly the sunlight intensified, and the pleasure of subtle warm relief took me immediately out of meditation. My eyes snapped open as I realized that physical pleasure can be as much of a distraction and a hindrance to centeredness as pain is.

A man walked up to me in the middle of this thought. He had been driving the little snowplow around the sidewalks. He told me he was a brain cancer survivor and that he respects someone with a devotion to inner focus. We talked briefly about meditation, and he mentioned that he was struggling to lose the weight he'd put on recently. I said, well, you know meditation can free you from addictions and food is certainly addictive.

The insight that converged as I walked home was that truly, addiction, or attachment, is suffering. It seems we live in a society of addicts, of insatiable need, and this is why we are never at peace for very long. Now I look at my own addictions: I have been addicted to food, to intimacy, to talking and thinking, addicted to getting attention in a group of people, addicted to achievement, addicted to my own appearance in the mirror. I have also been addicted to worry, about my health, my future career, my acne.

I wish to be free of these things, and I ask you, Universe, Self, to help me through it!

I wish to identify not with my body, my name, my words, my achievements, but with the immortal Awareness that I share with all of you.

You know what I mean. Anyway, to get back to pleasure and pain, it seems we are addicted to both of them. There is an anxious pull toward pleasure, called desire, and an anxious avoidance of pain, called fear. I think it's not really pleasure or pain that causes suffering, but this obsessive anxiety about them which creates turbulence in my contentment, my stillness.

What I want to know from you is, Do you think freedom from attachments is the way to happiness? Or is my aloofness somehow bad? I feel that some people would criticize me for having no material goals. Please help me validate how I feel!

Peace of heart to all of you.

Laura

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Research Ideas

Below are some of the ideas for future research we discussed in class. Although we have 3 new groups growing, I hope that we can continue to expand on some of the the following ideas!
  1. Precognition
  2. Personality and psi ability
  3. Intention
  4. Quantum Physics (Tiller)
  5. Energy Healing/Qigong (e.g. rats and cancer)
  6. Interaction of consciousness and the material world/ the Relationship between the mental and physical world
  7. Remote viewing
  8. Remote healing
  9. Retroactive influence
  10. Analyzing introspective reports of individuals who have experienced and/or demonstrated psi ability
  11. Dream analysis; lucid dream experience
  12. Anomalous knowing
  13. Compassion
  14. Poltergeist phenomenon
What else should we add to the list?

Also, how can we go about dividing some of these ideas into the three groups? Any ideas?

3 Groups

Unique Names

Intention:
1. kmmuir
2. lauramic
3. jphenno
4. maurerm
5. judlygil

Remote Viewing
1. abgalla
2. ejcohen
3. evelass
4. rockwood

Precognition
1. cdcarp
2. lauramic
3. rjdough
4. jdaws

Meditation through Flow: Is it Possible?

In her book, Meditation for the Love of It, Sally Kempton describes meditation, its qualities, teachings, and benefits. She discusses how through meditation, one is able to develop awareness of the universe and one's placement in it through drawing within oneself, settling the mind, and understanding oneself from the ground up. Meditation allows one to expand on their consciousness through shifting away from viewing oneself as a physical person defined by external factors (i.e. history, appearance, intelligence, opinions, emotions, etc.), and moving towards seeing oneself in a subtler, purer form.

Kempton describes meditative states in some of the following ways:
  • spontaneous
  • natural
  • immune to manifestation by force, yet unable to be approached passively
  • matter of atonement and awareness
  • gradual
  • affected by attitude
  • not just an act or a process, but a relationship; a relationship with oneself and one's consciousness
  • power to enable us to become whole
  • power to clear the mind
In my studies in positive psychology, I have learned about "flow." Psychologist Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi coined this term, describing it as a mental state of operation in which a person fully immersed in single-minded, focused motivation. It entails a sense of effortless action, which can be referred to as "being in the zone." It is through "flow activities" that an individual is able to increase the complexities of their mind, and develop and grow on a "stream" or unity of ongoing flow of consciousness.

Csikszentmihalyi identifies the following nine factors as present during one's experience of flow:
  1. Definite goals: challenge and skill level must both be high
  2. Concentration: single-minded focus on a specific field of attention
  3. Loss of feeling of self-consciousness: action and awareness merge into one
  4. Distorted sense of time: one's subjective sense of time is altered
  5. Feedback: success and failures in one's engagement with this activity are direct and immediate
  6. Balance between ability level and challenge: the activity is neither too easy nor too difficult
  7. Control: a sense of personal authority over the situation or activity
  8. Reward: the activity is intrinsically rewarding; entails an effortlessness of action
  9. Lack of awareness of bodily needs: one can reach a point of real hunger or thirst without realizing it

It is clear that there are commonalities in experience between both meditation and "flow activities."

My question: Can the inner world of the self, awareness, and consciousness be achieved in ways other than still, quiet meditation as suggested by Kempton? I know there is no "wrong" way to meditate, and that every individual's has a meditation practice that is unique to him or her self, but I am curious to know whether or not it is possible to "enter the field of consciousness" that Kempton describes through engaging in some form of physical activity? Is that possible, or do you think that the experiences differ between the two? Is "flow" more limited in capacity than the form of meditation she describes?

Intro & love

Hey guys! I'd like to do an introduction of some sort as well. You could consider this an abridged introduction to Mandie's spirituality ;)

I'll begin by saying that "spirituality" was never a term that I felt personally resonated with me for the entirety of my life until about this past summer. I was raised Roman Catholic, but the faith or practice was never taken seriously in the environment in which I was raised. Consequently, I stopped practicing the religion when I came to college and did embark on a period of exploration, though it was largely in vain. It was basically the quest for the "answer" to the question "Does it make sense to believe?" which I'm sure many of you can relate to having inquired in your past. In speaking with many people from a range of different faiths as they attempted to convey the meaning that their practice and beliefs infused into their lives, I slowly gathered the impression that this was not something that I could reason myself into or out of (Yes, I am very fond of reason. Too fond of reason.) I came to resign to the attitude that spirituality was not something that I could find unless it found me.

Now I attribute the beginnings of my spiritual awakening to my trip to Vietnam and Cambodia this past summer. To give you the gist of it, I gradually realized that the cultures that I was immersed in viewed the world, people, and their lives in fundamentally different ways than I had ever been exposed to previously. The differences that I was most focused on were the almost complete disregard for material wealth and a much higher importance of relationships and meaning in life (life that is now, not 10 yrs, 5 yrs, or even 1 yr, from now). Experiencing this reality resulted in a deep awakening and desire inside of me. I didn't exactly know what it was, but this yearning and simultaneous serenity that I felt had a distinctly different quality and color to it that was foreign to anything I'd ever felt before.

Fast-forward to my current state of being: I've explored various spiritual practices over the last semester and have found some hardly meaningful, while others much more so. I definitely live my life in a state of more complete awareness. Whereas before this last summer, I would live my life half-asleep, half-aware, half-present; now I am much closer to truly living. For instance, the other day I was musing about the way in which I remember my life. There’s a difference now between the memories of passing days – each day is distinct for its meaningful experiences, while before, days were all methodical, habitual accomplishments. They all blended together in my memory like a homogenized blur. Now they are discreet. Luminous, glittering, vibrant Sundays, Wednesdays, Late-Thursdays-That-Carry-Into-Fridays.

And lastly, I believe that over these last few months I've truly learned what it means to love. If you were to ask me what "spirituality" means to me in the present moment, "love" would be my reply, for I've come to realize the sweetness in giving it to and receiving it from others (I mean anyone). For me, experiencing another person, receiving a glimpse of their humanity - the essence of their being - is loving, and every interaction with another being can be an experience of love. This is something that I now try to focus on as steadfastedly as possible, for when I do, I am always spiritually blessed.

I apologize for the slightly erratic and stream-of-consciousness nature of this response, but I hope that some of you can connect with these feelings or experiences or will maybe feel the desire to offer your own thoughts! Thank you for taking the time to read it!

I am a Sacred Sanctuary

I want to write about my experience at the doctor’s the other day. I don’t know if it’s the stuff for this blog, but I would like to write about it. And I would also like to know if we’d like to discuss things of a different nature here.

Anyways, disclaimer, on the surface it’s about “women’s issues”. I’d felt a lump in my breast that I wanted to get checked. My doctor said it seemed fine, but my mother wanted a second opinion. The ending of the story is that my breasts are happy and healthy. But during the process of having other people find that out, I felt so emotionally raw, for whatever reason. I believe we all have our lessons to learn in this life.

I was in the arboretum when I agreed to get a second opinion. There were so many nurturing trees around me, so many layers and levels to the landscape. I felt like everything in the snow globe I was standing in was my teacher, and I felt a surprising, eager perspective to go ahead and ask the doctors to guide me in forming a friendship with my breasts. I was ready to approach that hitching of my heart feeling, and the I’m looking for a “problem” feeling I get when I, as a woman, am told to do my monthly breast exam. Too bad my appointment was at the cancer center and too bad I was seeing a breast surgeon. Five people and two machines gave so much lovin’ to my breasts. They systematically mauled me as if they were kneading through dough to find and pull out a ring they had accidentally dropped in there. Their eyes looked persistently worried and determined, their voices unnaturally loud as if to blanket my mirrored worry, and I imagined the disappointment of the surgeon when I told her to let her biopsy scalpel be, that I was willing to risk her uncertainty. The whole time I was practicing relaxation exercises. They’d touch me and my whole body would clench. I’d notice my deep stomach muscles shiver, and my legs and forehead tense, and I closed my eyes and breathed and worked on letting go. I took the time that I spent alone on the bed to breathe warm, loving light within and around me. Going from appointment to ultrasound to appointment to mammogram, feelings gathered within me. With each interaction with the doctors, I felt misunderstood. Not only did I feel angry and think “no way am I sitting in the cancer center, no way is this happening to me this young”, and feel fear of losing myself in a rush of this new river of hospital/chemical experiences that would just rush me along towards a different than what I intended future, but I felt misunderstood. Although the doctors were well-intentioned, I felt minimized. Hello, I’m a boob and a lump.

I remember the first time I felt the dense tissue in my breast I had my mom, a gynecologist, examine it. Not a great idea. I felt so incredibly vulnerable and intensely protective of being violated. I ran away and surprised myself with an impressive, frothy, slamming wave of tears. I curled up in child’s pose and let myself cry in my cave, and slowly images came to my mind. I saw a steel, sterile, deceptively reflective hospital operation room, but I had become the table of stainless steel. I had an image of a factory line, and I was one object among many on the moving band. Simultaneously, I had also become a thin, hard sheet of stainless steel. The thin slices of breast they were going to take of me, I had suddenly become. I had become their sharp knives and their thin ham-sliced creation. And then I got an image of me whole, warmed by the gentle, constant warm heart within me-pulsing, and surrounded with light, in my room at night, and the light was filled with hovering, violet butterflies. And the man I cared for was with me. He was loving my breasts with butterfly kisses, and in his gesture he was paying homage to me, bowing down to me. My breasts now signified a whole me, validation in another person’s loving and apprehension of all of me. And so my tears grieved him too and also accepted the gift of his presence in my life.

Now I’ve learned how not to orient myself to people. In whatever profession, (healing, caring, etc.), I will focus on the spirit of the person before me while juggling the paradox of our transient, short life with all of its remarkable, playful boundaries. How wonderful to focus our loving work on researching and developing healing that takes the whole person into account. So that one day, instead of being told that the radiation from the mammogram I’m about to receive is my yearly dose of Nagasaki, I will lie on a bed in a room filled with plants and potted violets and have my friend, my teacher, my doctor, my co-journeyer pay respect to my spirit and speak a more subtle language of energy and loving healing. Bless me for apprehending our greatness in those grace-filled moments. This insight is now a part of my integrity and my conviction to live this reverence and center on it. My friend, Henryk Skolimowski (read The Participatory Mind), says that we are not machines but sacred sanctuaries. Thankyou, universe, Self, for the moments that I have lived the perspective of this new metaphor.

Monday, January 31, 2011

One by One



Music has an other-worldly quality to me. This song by Enya is so beautiful - it is like she reaches into my soul and pulls out everything I mean. She can sort out what it means to be Roxy on days when I cannot. Enya is not the only one (and I promise, most are less typically *~spiritual~*). So I thought I would post this song for you all to contemplate with. You can ignore the video...heh.

What does it mean to be Roxy today, while listening to this?

To begin, this class has got me thinking A LOT. A whole lot. What is my inner spirituality? In what do I believe and what does my soul really connect to?

I love meditation. But for some reason, I continue to wake up depressed from it. I cannot blame all of these sentiments on meditation - I recently just attempted to take myself off of anti-depressants (giving up on this for now), recently went through some issues with my boyfriend, and am a Floridian trying to survive her third winter. All of these have taken a toll on me. So maybe I am sad after meditation because I have trouble finding the "pure joy" buried in us all - my sadness creates too large of a blockade.

But when I meditate, I don't feel sad. I feel calm, content, I feel kind of excited, kind of awesome. But then I wake up and feel overwhelmed with sadness. That's not supposed to happen. Do I just feel upset to leave my mind and wake up to the "real world"?

I don't mean to sound down, I am still very optimistic about meditation and look forward to beginning the program tomorrow. I suppose what I am saying...is sometimes meditation does what you don't expect it to. It reveals what you are feeling deep down. It is like a psychoanalyst, but needs no physical speech, or concentrated thoughts. I wish I could *exhale* whatever ill thought is going on in my head away, but I don't think that is right. Sometimes it is okay to keep our problems with us, and work through them in time.

I am curious if anyone relates to what I am saying, definitely feel free to comment. :)

On a completely separate note, I want to discuss the "guru" aspect of meditation. I find practically everything else in the Meditation book relatable, inspiring, or exciting to incorporate. But I am having trouble with the gurus. I even found the section on it to be quite confusing, as though she was hesitant whilst writing it. Is it just me?

Who can explain this better to me?

What is a person who really prefers to not think of a single higher power to do? I know with my beliefs I could focus on "positive energy" or nature; but it sort of bothered me that she did not even suggest how to work with those kinds of things, you know? Also, what are we to do as students very new to spirituality for the teacher-guru aspect? When I really thought about it, the best idea that came to me was Patrick Wolf - he is my favorite musician and has truly influenced my spirituality within the past seven years of my life, even though that was really not his intention...

Basically - I am wondering what you guys do in terms of gurus, and what you thought of the book's explanation? I really want to see meditation as seriously as possible in the next three weeks, and definitely want to try incorporating those aspects!

Thanks for reading, and see you tomorrow :D x Roxy

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Midnight Rider

Hey Guys,

So let me preface this post by stating that this is not as much of a comment, but rather much more of a question that I pose to you all. If you have no interest in reading what I have to write, please feel free to skip down to the bottom of my post and read my question :)

So, during our previous meeting last week, Laura and I shared our opinions on our respective meditations and as well discussed our opinions on Sally Kempton's book. I noted how I loved that the book was broken down into small sections, was written with an introductory language, contained various in-text exercises, and as well was written in a dialouge/conversation formation. By this, I believe that the book is a lot less her talking and lecturing to me, which I find most books to be, but rather her having a talking with me. It is somewhat difficult to explain through typing, but definitely something I noticed.

However, as I shared with Laura, my favorite aspect of her book were the small little quotes sandwiched into the sides of the pages. Even though I was very unfamiliar with many of the authors of the quotes, they each spoke to me and provided deep concepts for thought. In fact, while I was reading, I tended to find myself sitting on a certain page, playing out the entire story line and meaning of the quote through my imagination.

During class, I shared with Laura that my favorite quote, from Sally Kempton's book, was the quote from Rumi, who wrote:

"The spirit is so near that you can't see it!
But reach for it...
Don't be the rider who gallops call night
And never sees the horse this is beneath him"

To me, this quote summarized everything that was the weekend before. As I also discussed with the class, my in-class meditation was very focused about the weekend that I spent with my girlfriend. As she was only visiting for the weekend, I tried to plan everything down to the wire and was always wondering if she was enjoying her time. I never really thought about how I was feeling, or more importantly, just living in the moment and enjoying being in her company. Instead of doing the aforementioned things, I was always one step ahead and was thinking of what next needs to be done. I never really sat back and enjoyed the time we were spending together. My eyes were fixed on the goal and prize, making her happy.

That is why Rumi's quote really speaks to me. He talks about not being the rider who rides through the night, who never acknowledges the horse beneath him. To me, Rumi is talking about really living in the present and really acknowledging your surroundings. Although the goal might be important, it is no where near as important as the process. Another example would be our college experiences. We should not only be focused on graduating, which would be riding through the night to reach our destination, as we should be concerned about meeting new people and trying new things. The experience, and acknowledging the present, is sometimes just as important as the goal. But then again, I could be completely wrong and am way off track on Rumi's quote.

So as promised, here is the question I post to you all: What was/it your favorite quote from Sally Kempton's book? Was there one quote that you enjoyed or made you think more than others? If so, please feel free to share the quote, the page number, and a small explanation about how that quote affects your understanding of everything.

Best,

Ethan

PS: The title of the post, "Midnight Rider" has nothing to do with the post, I just love the song :)

A bit of perspective

So I unfortunately did not get to attend the intro to meditation class or whatever it was on Thursday, which was something I had been looking forward to. But it was for good reason, which leads me to this short story:

Thursday night I drove home to spend the night/Friday with my mom and sister just because I had this strange feeling that told me I needed to go home. I couldn't tell you where it came from or why I trusted it, but there it was. And so I did.
When I told my sister of this spontaneous plan, she was thrilled, but then cautiously asked me if I would be staying Friday too. I asked her what the hell she was being so shady about (as my sister and I never have a problem being completely honest with one another) and she admitted that she wanted me to come with her to one of her AA meetings on Friday.
Now, I'm not an alcoholic, but I have had my fair share of non-substance addictions with which I still struggle. Knowing this, Carly (my sister) said that it was totally acceptable to just say "Hi I'm Piper and I'm an addict", as not everyone in the group was solely an alcoholic and often introduced themselves that way as well.
 So I went. I didn't know what to expect, but I went. And I am so grateful for the experience.

There were people there from age 22 to 85, from all different walks of life, and every one of them struggles daily with a disease that constantly plots to overtake them. They have to fight against their own thought patterns, patters that they did not design but were genetically ingrained within them. These people had stories that could reduce anyone to tears. And yet (and here's the beautiful part) not one of them spent their few minutes of speaking time throwing a pity party for him/herself. Every SINGLE one of them had some positive insight or outlook to share with the group. I was astounded that so many people who have an arsenal of reasons to bitterly turn their backs on optimism had taken the diametric path.
After listening, I found a common thread that weaved their stories together. Everyone there did not resent their dark past but instead expressed gratitude for it. One man said "being an alcoholic is the best thing that ever happened to me". A paradoxical thought at first, but upon deeper reflection one can see the simple, beautiful logic in the statement. Yes they all endured (and still endure) pain and suffering, but grew stronger in overcoming those horrors. From the darkness sprang forth a light.

I left the meeting refreshed, my heart swollen with faith, hope, and love. And I hope this little tale brings some of those invaluable emotions to you as well :).

Friday, January 28, 2011

Mental Construal: Production of Thoughts Manifested

The university experience exudes the phrase ‘knowledge is power.’ In contrast to K-12 public education, university classes allow for in-depth coverage of topics across an array of academic departments. In psychology, students learn about competing to justify the same psychological phenomena. These competing theories naturally expose mental construals by recognizing more than one perspective exists.

An alternate perspective from the foundational logic of Buddhism eradicates mental construals through meditative contemplation on the ‘exchange of self and other’, there by eliciting an empathetic perspective of other human beings. Schwarz (2009) suggests mental construals are congruent with an individual’s current situation and goals, affecting perceived objective judgments about new information and memory recollection. Understanding mental construals provides an opportunity for conceptual autonomy by turning a perceived problem into a solution. Reattribution of experiences is utilized in modern cognitive therapies derived from Eastern Buddhist perspectives that seek to eradicate mental construals built within Western culture that may diminish individuals’ happiness.

Before being aware of this similarity between psychological findings and Buddhist teachings, I sought to further my education in the practice of Buddhism—an honest teacher with direct lineage from the Buddha was a necessity so as to follow ‘the path’. I learned that there was a Zen Buddhist Temple in Ann Arbor. Ecstatic by the presence of an honest teacher I inquired about residency at the Temple; soon I was signing a lease and agreeing to the rules and regulations as a resident of the Temple a month later. Being aware of the requirements and imagining a more restrictive but still satisfactory lifestyle was a poor predictor of the actual experience of living in a Temple.

The head monk suggested I frequently visit before deciding whether to live at the Temple. I went to three Wednesday morning practices, which start at 5:30am, before deciding to live there. Wednesday morning practice consists of 35 prostrations, a 15 minute mediation, 5 minutes of chanting, check-in, and breakfast. The feelings felt during those practices strongly guided my judgment to live at the Temple, before putting down a security deposit. Those feelings were formed from the exciting introduction to a sacred practice that also corresponded with my own personal beliefs. Not knowing the meaning of the prayers, chants, and gestures, I was forced to alertly observe the customs in order to adapt more quickly.

The inability to accurately imagine the experience of living in a Temple is explained by Wilson and Gilbert’s (2005) concept of affective forecasting, individuals’ “overestimating the intensity and duration of their emotional reactions to…events” (p. 131). I did not consider that after a month of 5:30am morning practices I would no longer feel excited in the morning. The experience was no longer new, nor did I have to be alert to adapt; ceasing to be a novel experience, morning practice became a mundane daily responsibility.

Allowing one aspect of a decision, my feelings, to guide the decision leads to an overestimation in the perceived importance of my feelings, diminishing the importance of other everyday factors. Wilson and Gilbert define this as focalism, “the tendency to underestimate the extent to which other events will influence our thoughts and feelings” (2005, p. 131). When considering living at the Temple I failed to judge aspects other than projecting how it felt to be there, not the change in emotions felt after living there for two months.

When considering other aspects, I judged them quickly and independently: work, school, Temple life, and volunteer activities; not how these many aspects interact together and compete for time. This happened because my most recent experiences of each of these aspects were experienced independently. Before my decision, I finished winter semester focusing on just school and volunteer activities, and acquired an internship to fill the summer months. Having more free time in the summer I became more involved at the Temple. When considering all of these activities together, I recollected the amount of strain each aspect added to my life when experienced, allowing all these aspects together to seem manageable.

Remembering the stress of each activity in the specific context it was experienced contributed to misattributions when imagining the future. Schacter and Addis (2009) write that “imagining possible future events depends on much of the same cognitive and neural machinery as does remembering past events” (p. 108). Therefore the emotion elicited by remembering the lack of stress experienced by each activity individually, was the same emotion used to reconstruct my imagined experience of the future.

Furthermore, remembering the past or imagining the future is also affected by an individual’s state of being when considering a decision. Schwarz (2009) purports that “information brought to mind by a given context is…relevant to the person’s current situation, thus facilitating adequately contextualized responses” (p. 124). Recollecting my past experiences as low-stress, in conjunction with my feelings being relaxed when considering the decision primed accessible future projections to be considerably more low-stress and relaxed.

Despite neglecting to consider many varying aspects of living in a Temple, my housing lease expired in three months. After a month of searching for affordable housing and running out of time, the Temple was the best solution for housing meeting all of my listed requirements and more: driveway parking, laundry, utilities, food, and rent under $600, within walking distance to campus and a close drive to work, likeable housemates, and most importantly a flexible month-by-month lease—as I’m still unsure of my plans after graduating in December.

With only two months left to find housing, the Temple not only fit all my requirements, but also allowed for the acquisition of Buddhist knowledge and experience. Schwarz (2009) notes that “people’s decisions are more likely to be based on their general goals than on a consideration of specific means and ends when the act is in the distant rather than the near future” (p. 132). Therefore the decision to live at the Temple was more heavily influenced and considered by fulfilling short-term housing needs, than the more amorphous acquisition of knowledge and experience fulfilled by living there.

I begin adjusting to Temple life during the first week of classes but was disappointed to discover living there became a source of many problems. However, the required reading by Wilson and Gilbert (2005) within the first few weeks of class assured I would adapt to Temple life, stating “people fail to anticipate how quickly they will cope psychologically with such events in ways that speed their recovery” (p. 131). Developing this hypothetically: I wrote down my frustrated thoughts about morning practice upon first moving in, expecting my thoughts to be more adapted when writing about the same experience after living at the Temple for two months.

The two descriptions rarely match in detail, however descriptions of breakfast are somewhat similar in detail and the differences between the experiences reveal how I adapted.

9/14: “I hate eating out of bowl, why was it decided for me what I eat out of anyways? Filling food into a bowl forces it to be mixed together; I try to only put foods that combine well in my bowl—limiting my food intake yet again. I actually dislike eating.”

11/14: “The past couple of days I’ve noticed that despite consistently layering my bowl with the same proportions, my chopsticks account for the different taste each morning; actually forcing the foods to mix differently even with the same ingredients. I’ve started adding all foods present on the table to my bowl, just to experience the juxtaposition of taste.”

There is an enormous difference between the two reflections. In September the experience was overwhelmingly experienced as new; however, in November the event was no longer perceived as a new experience, but as “making sense of events, [to] adapt emotionally to them” (Wilson & Gilbert, 2005, p. 132). For example, my chopsticks were the attributed cause to the different taste of breakfast each morning. There are many alternative reasons other than my chopsticks as to why the food might taste different. However, “people tend to construct a single, or very small number of scenarios, for any given judgment situation” —like chopsticks—to ‘make sense’ of events. This suggests that individuals choose their adapted perceptions wisely because it may affect the level of mental construal in a perception (Ross & Buehler, 2001, p. 527).

After rereading my first journal entry, I expressed feeling a greater distance from my peers, watching them shotgun beers during welcome week. Seeing seniors guzzle down cheap beer over their porches with likeminded friends, I started to consider that I rushed my college experience by graduating in three and a half years; nor did I expect or want my senior semester to be the most difficult semester yet. There was going to be limited, if any, amount of drinking with friends, a full semester of classes and homework, and I still had not even been to a football game intoxicated. My college experience seemed cheated, and I felt like I had made a huge error in judgment.

Constructing a mental representation of the typical college experience simultaneously constructed the mental construal of the perceived ‘greater’ distance from my peers. Exacerbating the construed difference between me and my peers was the limited amount of information (college drinking) used to represent my standard of the ‘college experience’ in comparison to Buddhist-like behavior (Schwarz, 2009). I also failed to consider occasional drinking done independently of Temple property as acceptable, suggesting that “apparent differences in ethical judgment may arise from…differences in construal” (Ross & Ward, 1996, p. 113). The mental construal between my peers—prior to accepting drinking elsewhere—was produced by perceived ethical differences and a contrast effect, strengthened by using a limited amount of information to construct a standard of the ‘college experience’.

I personally attribute the positive outlook distinctly different from the first cynical journal entry, reflects my shift in perception from Western beliefs to Eastern-Buddhist beliefs to cope psychologically with events in order to find happiness (Wilson & Gilbert, 2005). Heavily influenced by Western religious traditions “that pit opposites against one another”, Western language developed meaning through understanding dichotomies (Wong, 2009, p. 8). However, Eastern perspective as built upon Buddhist perspectives is a frame work where “nothing exist independently or autonomously. The world is a vast flow of events that are linked together and participate in one another” (Gunaratne, 2009, p. 71).

Cultivating an understanding of Buddhism, I no longer made deductive, dichotomous attributions of cause and effect, but learned to see the world as a series of resonating interactions instead. An article written by Wong, (2009) suggest the dichotomies of Western language “oversimplifies our view of emotional meaning and neglects its full richness and complexity” and “blocks from thinking and understanding the larger concept of affect” (Wong, 2009, p. 9). Suggesting Western language may actually inflict mental construals upon affective reasoning that limit individuals’ consciousness—cognitions, emotions, motives—from understanding its full richness (Brown & Ryan, 2003).

Western authority defines consciousness through awareness and attention; however, the Buddhist practice of mindfulness is “the state of being attentive to and aware of what is taking place in the present” (Brown & Ryan, 2003, p. 822). The difference between the cultures being that mindfulness is a practice indicating ‘consciousness’ to be an acquired skill. Mindfulness is thought to “contribute to well-being and happiness in a direct way” by adding clarity and vividness to experience (Brown & Ryan, 2003, p. 823). Exposure to Eastern philosophies, like Buddhism, provides an opportunity for conceptual freedom by allowing Westerners’ to change their perceptual world view; as a result individuals’ subjective experiences and memories are substantially more complex, vivid, and satisfying.

“The Buddhist view that knowledge derives from thinking critically” suggests mindfulness requires being attentive to the present to critically think about the surrounding environment, in an attempt to derive information from it (Gunaratne, 2009, p. 70). Once an individual adapts extracted knowledge about an experience, people tend to construct few other scenarios for any given judgment (Ross & Buehler, 2001). Similar to the focalism, individuals’ underestimate the extent to which the perspectives they construct, are simultaneously embedded in different levels of mental construal. Perceptions “are perceived and interpreted in terms of the individual perceiver’s own needs, own connotations, own personality, [and] own previously formed cognitive patterns” (Ross & Ward, 1996, p. 103).

Mindful individuals’ continuously extract knowledge from each moment of life—even habitual ones—to create rich meaningful experiences; adding depth to experiences allows for a vivid recollection of those experiences. However the positive affect attributed to mindfulness could actually be due to the “positive feelings that accompany the act of successful recall, rather than reflecting the true [emotional] nature of the past” (Leboe & Ansons, 2006, p. 596). Therefore mindfulness may not directly contribute to happiness, but indirectly elicit positive emotions do to the ease of perceptual fluency (Schwarz, 2002). Mindfulness or perceptual fluency, both “facilitate well-being through self-regulated activity and fulfillment of the basic psychological needs for autonomy” (Brown & Ryan, 2003, p. 824).

Partnerships between science and Buddhism that co-evolved as research apparatuses to probe the nature of reality and well-being advocate for “an alternate view of globalization is possible through the perspective of Eastern, particularly Buddhist philosophy” (Wong, 2009; Gunaratne, 2009, p. 60). Currently “Western philosophy assumes an emotion to arise from value judgments; Buddhist philosophy however assumes an emotion is a mental valenced state with no judgment involved” (Wong, 2009, p. 16). Adapting Buddhist beliefs I moved from the Western construction of emotions construed by value judgments—construals are embedded within any judgment—to simply experiencing emotions independent of attributional causes.

Buddhist concepts have structured some of the most recent cognitive-behavioral therapies using “attributional retraining techniques to influence people’s beliefs about their experiences” (Ross & Buehler, 2001, p. 519). These therapies, such as mindfulness-based cognitive therapy and contemplative psychotherapy, seek to rationalize emotions by reducing dichotomous happy or sad attributions that are embedded and constructed within Western philosophy (Wilson & Gilbert, 2005). “Remembering events that were initially unpleasant actually improve mood when people focus on beneficial, longer-term consequences of the episode, such as personal growth and change” (Ross & Buehler, 2001, p. 519). An experience that is not considered valuable can become valuable by constructing the opposite (positive) effect from a previously considered negative experience; structuring both allows individuals to develop a more complex emotional representation of events.

Whether implemented through psychological therapies or acquiring knowledge of Buddhist philosophy, individuals are provided the framework to re-conceptualize their emotions autonomously by attributing several perceptions and feelings to one event. Suppressing the need to rationalize an event dichotomously, individuals possess the conceptual freedom to develop more complex emotions that add depth and value to their recollected experiences. The ability to entertain more than one perspective to an experience demands that individuals are continuously alert and aware (mindful) during experiences; naturally building reflexive thinking skills that contribute to the extinction of various personal mental construals. Suggesting knowledge acquired through personal experiences or science, is in fact a power that transforms “ordinary living into a richer, more enhanced, more mature happiness” (Levine, 2009, p. 260).

Hot Vinyasa Yoga

Hey all!

I was going to announce this in class on Tuesday, but didn't get around to it. So here we go!

A student group I'm in hosts FREE monthly yoga classes in conjunction with the Center for Yoga of Ann Arbor. Hot Vinyasa classes combine unique flows, strength work, and killer 100+ degree heat to detoxify the body and help you get extra stretchy. I've been doing this type of yoga since the fall, and I am in love. If you're interested, the details are below -- I hope some of you can make it out!

What: FREE Hot Vinyasa Yoga
When: THIS SUNDAY, 1/30/11, 2pm-4pm (feel free to come for either hour or both!)
Where: 621 E. William St. (right around the corner from the Jimmy John's on State St.)

If you have a mat, bring it. If not, we've got lots to loan. Bring water, a towel, and your energy!

- eve

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Introduction + Siddha Meditation

Hey Interweb!

As the first post here recommended, an intro post sounds like a cool idea. So here is mine. My name is Roxy. I was born and raised in Boca Raton, FL - aka the retirement capital of the universe, which consists largely of old, Jewish New Yorkers. My father originates from the mystical land of Persia, or Iran as these days have it. He moved to New York from Tehran when he was eighteen to earn a college education. He left just in time before the revolution, after which my whole family slowly trickled in. We are Jewish, and that was (is) pretty unacceptable there since the Revolution.

My mom comes from the good ole Midwest; Bloomington, Illinois. I suppose it was meant to be that I would return to her homeland for college. Why did I leave the nice, warm weather for eternal winters? I dunno. Why did I come to a state which most Floridians regard as "the middle of nowhere"? I dunno. I just wanted something different.

Anyway, enough about demographics. I went to an orthodox Jewish school until age 11 (though my family is Reform). Later, I went to a high school for the arts, where I focused on forensics and creative writing. My inner-spirituality came creeping back after I had emergency brain surgery in freshman year of high school. I was left with headaches and depression a year later. I started with craniosacral therapy to help the headaches. Then did hypnotherapy. Eventually I found myself quite healed, and began using my newfound healing techniques on friends and family. The most amazing thing about it wasn't just how my unlearned techniques actually helped people, but also how it in turn helped me! I decided this alternative, new-age stuff is more than just a fad.

Flash forward to now. I am a psychology and RC creative writing major. I am always pretty confused about what I want to do. Since I was five I have always wanted to write novels. That has not changed. But my most recent venture with psychology finally makes sense - I want to go into alternative healing/behavioral therapy. So yeah, this class is a really great start!

So that is me! I am excited to get to know you all. Hopefully my introduction wasn't too boring and lengthy!

Now for my amazing Thursday night. I went to the Siddha Meditation service tonight with a few of you, and it was brilliant. I want to reflect on what happened at the service, what happened to me, and my thoughts throughout. The service consisted of traditional meditative chanting, wise words, and meditation, plus a giant ball of positive energy floating about.

The first thing which really spoke to me was the talk concerning silence. I felt pangs in my stomach. I have to admit that living in a house with five other girls lends itself to bounds of gossip. Talking behind other people's backs. Saying things which helps no one, and certainly not myself, despite how tempting it is. Since it affected me so emotionally, I resolved to stop it all. If someone starts gossipping I am going to remove myself, and remember what I have been learning recently - that the Self is the strongest, most important side to me, and us all, and focusing on these trivial things only weakens our ability to be in touch with it.

Chanting was a completely new experience for me, and I was shocked at how peaceful, enjoyable, and calming it was. All of our voices in union creating a strange flow of vibrations and energy in the room and inside of me. When we fell into meditation, I was amazed at how automatically I transported myself into my meditative state. I realized I was already in it. With no conscious effort, the chanting put me into a deeper state. That was awesome to experience.

I must go do some homework, but I plan on writing more soon about the meditation and some thoughts going through my mind these days! xo Roxy