satisfaction

My meditation experience this morning left me so happy. I'd like to share with you what I ecstatically wrote in my journal right after it:

I NEED NOTHING MORE THAN WHAT IS CONTAINED IN THIS MOMENT TO BE SATISFIED. I HAVE MANY BEAUTIFUL THINGS IN MY LIFE BUT I NEED NOT COUNT THEM, THIS JOY COMES NOT FROM THEM. I FEEL A PROFOUND AND COMPLETE SATISFACTION WHICH HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THE EXTERNAL - SATISFACTION IS A CHOICE IN ITSELF, A PURELY MENTAL PLACE.

EVERYTHING HAS TURNED INSIDE-OUT, WITH EMPTINESS NOW FEELING LIKE ABUNDANCE, AND ALL THOSE THINGS I ONCE DESIRED SEEMING HOLLOW AND INSUBSTANTIAL. I WAS ALMOST AFRAID TO SAY IT: I NEED... NOTHING... MORE... THAN THIS... NOTHING MORE THAN THIS! THEN I SAID IT OVER AND OVER, JOYOUSLY, RECKLESSLY, LIKE A ROMPING CHILD - I NEED NOTHING MORE! - ALL THE WHILE STOMPING PLAYFULLY ON THOSE OLD DESIRES LIKE THEY WERE CRAWLING BUGS ON THE SIDEWALK.

I don't know why I wrote it in all caps, that's how I did in my journal.